Ramadaan is a month when we do huge 3ibaadaat, Fasting, reading Qur’aan, qiyaam, du3aa’. but as soon as Ramadaan is over we are back to our routine & normal lives. These huge acts of worship do not affect us!!
Do you know how to do gardening?
Can you plant on cement? NO!!
You have to remove the cement, bring soil to plant the plants.
Why is that many of these acts of 3ibaadah have not changed us, they didn’t affect us? Because, we are planting on hard grounds.
In order to have these 3Ibaadah affect us, we have to clean our hearts first.
We have to clean our hearts from all the dirt, junk and rust of the sins before we fill them with the beautiful, powerful acts of worship in Ramadaan.
We have to repent with توبة النصوحا (sincere repentance).
Sit with yourself, list and write each of your sin (in a journal) in front of your face.
Sins of the tongue: backbiting, lies, slander, bad temper, speaking to people in an insulting way, making fun of others.
& if you feel that you have nothing (no sin) then this is عجب.
عجب = feeling you are too good to do have sin/feeling good about yourself in terms of your deen, It burns all the good deeds you have done.
It is Allaah, who gave you الهام to do good deed, inspired you so that you have will, then He gave you the means, then He gave you tawfeeq to do the good deed. Is there any more generosity?
Make sincere tawbah.
Sins of the heart: Hasad, showing off, jealousy, Hatred, envy, greed, selfishness, 3ujub.
Go deep in your heart. Be honest with yourself.
If anyone did wrong to you, forgive and forget & if you can’t forget at least do not hate anybody.
When making tawbah, remember that no sin is greater for Allaah to not forgive. Allaah says in Qur’aan:
قُلۡ يَـٰعِبَادِىَ ٱلَّذِينَ أَسۡرَفُواْ عَلَىٰٓ أَنفُسِهِمۡ لَا تَقۡنَطُواْ مِن رَّحۡمَةِ ٱللَّهِۚ إِنَّ ٱللَّهَ يَغۡفِرُ ٱلذُّنُوبَ جَمِيعًاۚ إِنَّهُ ۥ هُوَ ٱلۡغَفُورُ ٱلرَّحِيمُ
Say: “O 3Ibaadi (My slaves) who have transgressed against themselves (by committing evil deeds and sins)! Despair not of the Mercy of Allaah, verily Allaah forgives all sins. Truly, He is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful.” [ soorah Az-zumar, v:53]
Clean your heart, forgive others and forget, hoping for Allaah’s forgiveness.[Excerpt from a Ramadaan course] Notes taken by a student